So 2010... Big year, lots of struggle, got medicated so got some of my sanity back, lost weight... did not get house completely cleaned...
2011 is is here now! There was a lot of changes for me in 2010, and I can only hope they continue. Maybe some day the house will be clean, but the most important thing is that I have found me again. I never gave myself a chance to be anything for me. I have done nothing but give myself to everyone in my life, never taking care of me. I am slowly taking charge and It has helped more than anything.
Thursday, January 6, 2011
Friday, October 15, 2010
From a mom to a mom
I was sending my mom friend a message and thought I'd update my blog at the same time.
"LOL I'm sure I read that x amount of times before sending it and yet forgot about it and misspelled (lol... sp?) for... what eves!
I was hard at work doing nothing today... just decided to call you cause it's still pretty early and guess what! our break in communication this week has taken you off my most called list! now I'll have to go into my contacts and yadah yadah yadh :) We'll see if you answer hmmm.....nope got Vmail lets see if you call back hmmm..... not yet.... hmmm should I try 1 more time???? hmmm..... OK I 'm a chicken I bet your with Jax. I spent the day ignoring my kids and playing on my Wii, I know bad mom, but they love to watch I swear! heart cross, (or is it cross my heart?) I promise they beg me to play it! Don't you judge me! :) any ways I should say It took me all day to play because every 5 mins I had to get up and kiss an owie (sp?), get a drink or food, put cloths back on, take cloths back off, make sure a dog isn't eating the eggs a duck is sitting on, feed chickens, feed horse, feed dogs!, Feed kids again Pause Pause Pause! That was my day today LOL. I'm sure you had your challenges as well!!! Just decided to make this a blog post as well as a message to you... Do you care ??? :) Good night my sweets I will see you tomorrow and I'm guessing you may not even get this till after we have seen each other and will I tell you about it or not? (Promise this is the last one) hmmmm (with an added) ponder ponder ponder....(just re read it to get spelling errors and decided to give you 1 last call to tell you you have a message) :) How do i make it so it looks like the smile face is sticking it's tong out??? Off to ponder some more and Call you!"
Good night!
"LOL I'm sure I read that x amount of times before sending it and yet forgot about it and misspelled (lol... sp?) for... what eves!
I was hard at work doing nothing today... just decided to call you cause it's still pretty early and guess what! our break in communication this week has taken you off my most called list! now I'll have to go into my contacts and yadah yadah yadh :) We'll see if you answer hmmm.....nope got Vmail lets see if you call back hmmm..... not yet.... hmmm should I try 1 more time???? hmmm..... OK I 'm a chicken I bet your with Jax. I spent the day ignoring my kids and playing on my Wii, I know bad mom, but they love to watch I swear! heart cross, (or is it cross my heart?) I promise they beg me to play it! Don't you judge me! :) any ways I should say It took me all day to play because every 5 mins I had to get up and kiss an owie (sp?), get a drink or food, put cloths back on, take cloths back off, make sure a dog isn't eating the eggs a duck is sitting on, feed chickens, feed horse, feed dogs!, Feed kids again Pause Pause Pause! That was my day today LOL. I'm sure you had your challenges as well!!! Just decided to make this a blog post as well as a message to you... Do you care ??? :) Good night my sweets I will see you tomorrow and I'm guessing you may not even get this till after we have seen each other and will I tell you about it or not? (Promise this is the last one) hmmmm (with an added) ponder ponder ponder....(just re read it to get spelling errors and decided to give you 1 last call to tell you you have a message) :) How do i make it so it looks like the smile face is sticking it's tong out??? Off to ponder some more and Call you!"
Good night!
Thursday, September 23, 2010
27 oh my!!
My birthday is Friday and I don't feel 27. I'm going to a spa with my friend who has been begging me to go for months now. It's one of those naked spas yikes! But they have a full body scrub and that sounds Divine! So I'm excited, and hoping I like it and if I do I hope to go every month like she does.
So this summer was really hard for me. My husband was let go from his job at the beginning of June and so I went back to work. The only problem there is that I do not make even a fraction of what he does. So we were living off of nothing all summer. It was really hard and I'm glad it's over and hopefully it won't happen again. Now I'm back home with the kids and getting used to the old routine again. I love when I hear people say that they are a family that likes their sleep and that 7am is early to them. That is me and my family. My kids are getting up earlier now but I am having trouble with 7:30 being the new norm for getting up. I know whine whine poor me I'm lucky my kids don't get up at 5 or 6. Yes I know that and always have known that I was lucky that my kids slept a full 12 hours each night. I have been dreading the school days, how do I get them up and ready when I could never do that for myself? My daughter is in preschool so the school days have started bleck! With the new routine, not much sleep and did I mention trying to start a business, I feel like I am going crazy! No patients and constant frustration blah it sucks! So really need the spa day!
So this summer was really hard for me. My husband was let go from his job at the beginning of June and so I went back to work. The only problem there is that I do not make even a fraction of what he does. So we were living off of nothing all summer. It was really hard and I'm glad it's over and hopefully it won't happen again. Now I'm back home with the kids and getting used to the old routine again. I love when I hear people say that they are a family that likes their sleep and that 7am is early to them. That is me and my family. My kids are getting up earlier now but I am having trouble with 7:30 being the new norm for getting up. I know whine whine poor me I'm lucky my kids don't get up at 5 or 6. Yes I know that and always have known that I was lucky that my kids slept a full 12 hours each night. I have been dreading the school days, how do I get them up and ready when I could never do that for myself? My daughter is in preschool so the school days have started bleck! With the new routine, not much sleep and did I mention trying to start a business, I feel like I am going crazy! No patients and constant frustration blah it sucks! So really need the spa day!
Tuesday, May 18, 2010
A moment of silence and a thought in my brain...
Ahh silence. As I get a moment to my self I reflect on my parenting methods... The kids are
out side playing with umbrella strollers, one with a baby doll inside the other a stuffed dinosaur I got at Kohls. (awesome someone just got pulled over on my street, It's a long straight road and there is always drag racing going on) Back to my thoughts... I come back inside to continue cleaning my kitchen and decided I can turn the TV off! I am a TV baby
sitter parent. I always have it on in my living room most of the time with cartoons on it for them. I have a movie on in their room most of the time. Something at the ready to entertain them. Why, because I am selfish and have yet to learn that my time is almost always for them. If a fight breaks out I begrudgingly get up from my book, DS, TV show, Computer, whatever and break it up and am extremely frustrated that it happened and that I had to deal with it. Moving on from the bad mom confession... I get to turn the TV off and listen to a podcast and clean (actually update the blog) blah blah blah.
OK peace time is over they are back in the house and I have to start dinner.
Chocolate time!!! Washing the pan before I use it because it is still dirty from last week. Then making basic spaghetti because thats all I got to make.
LOL This is why it is Daring to regain my sanity... I can hardly finish a thought!
(as I read this draft on 7/20/10 and it is finally posted in all it random glory!)
out side playing with umbrella strollers, one with a baby doll inside the other a stuffed dinosaur I got at Kohls. (awesome someone just got pulled over on my street, It's a long straight road and there is always drag racing going on) Back to my thoughts... I come back inside to continue cleaning my kitchen and decided I can turn the TV off! I am a TV baby
sitter parent. I always have it on in my living room most of the time with cartoons on it for them. I have a movie on in their room most of the time. Something at the ready to entertain them. Why, because I am selfish and have yet to learn that my time is almost always for them. If a fight breaks out I begrudgingly get up from my book, DS, TV show, Computer, whatever and break it up and am extremely frustrated that it happened and that I had to deal with it. Moving on from the bad mom confession... I get to turn the TV off and listen to a podcast and clean (actually update the blog) blah blah blah.
OK peace time is over they are back in the house and I have to start dinner.
Chocolate time!!! Washing the pan before I use it because it is still dirty from last week. Then making basic spaghetti because thats all I got to make.
LOL This is why it is Daring to regain my sanity... I can hardly finish a thought!
(as I read this draft on 7/20/10 and it is finally posted in all it random glory!)
Friday, April 16, 2010
Update and something NEW
I haven't posted anything in a while. I have been working on my house, but alas nothing stays clean and it never looks better. On top of what I have stacked up, I had to add more boxes to my clutter. My mom and step dad sold their house, just signed the papers on Wed. finally. I had some childhood stuff in boxes there so they are all now at my house. AHHHHH I am going crazy! I need to go through all of it and decided what memories stay and what goes. Maybe I will get that done today, my gram is picking my daughter up from school and coming over here. With the kids busy with her I might just accomplish something.
Things have been really tight the last 2 months, that never helps with stress. So I have been concentrating on the outside, I have accidentally started a chicken farm! It started with picking up 11 Banty chicks and now has exploded to around 50 young chickens between 2 weeks - 3 months old. Then we also got ducks and geese 2 weeks ago to add to the frenzy! It's a good way to run away from my mess and clutter as long as it's sunny that is LOL. So along with this blog I will be starting a farm blog, since I have been spending so much time out side working my farm. Not sure what to call the farm yet... trying to think of something unique and fun. I will be selling eggs soon I am very eggcited for that!
Things have been really tight the last 2 months, that never helps with stress. So I have been concentrating on the outside, I have accidentally started a chicken farm! It started with picking up 11 Banty chicks and now has exploded to around 50 young chickens between 2 weeks - 3 months old. Then we also got ducks and geese 2 weeks ago to add to the frenzy! It's a good way to run away from my mess and clutter as long as it's sunny that is LOL. So along with this blog I will be starting a farm blog, since I have been spending so much time out side working my farm. Not sure what to call the farm yet... trying to think of something unique and fun. I will be selling eggs soon I am very eggcited for that!
Thursday, February 11, 2010
Long Week
So we started the week off by going about 30 minuets from home to buy some worms. Yes I said worms! We got a half a pound each of Red Wigglers and European Nightcrwalers. Then we took them home and set up 2 worm bins, for some great natural compost with out the compost pile.
Tuesday and Wednesday we just kind of hung around the house doing chores and cleaning (with not much to show for of course). Thursday we went on an hour drive to buy chicken feed and bunny food because I had a 10% off coupon and forgot to use it. Then my son, pooped in his diaper just as I was putting him into the car (they always do that when it's most inconvenient). There was no place to take him to change him and it was so cold so I waited till I saw a rest stop. Of course was no changing station so I put him onto the counter and changed him there with napkins. No paper towels to dry off your hands, just air dryers. Kinda funny too think about it if I hadn't had any napkins I would have had to hand wash his bum in the sink then try to dry him under the hand dryer... Ha Ha so funny when I actually play that in my head! I can imagine the mother and daughter that went in after us walking in to me holding my son at arms length under the hand dryer trying to get him dry.
Tomorrow my son and I will go to pick up a Silkie Rooster for my baby Bantam chicks while my daughter, is at school. Then go pick her up and later get some baby Quails... Yes Yes I am very much becoming a farmer and very much enjoying it! I love my farm and I love how it is only 5 minuets away from the city so I'm not too far away from a drive through Starbucks! Have I mentioned I love coffee and it is my vice? It might as well be a cigarette to me I am addicted! Hoping to get my dishes done too and as for Saturday It's gonna be a busy day at work! I'm guessing it's going to be a 15 animal bath day plus finishing half of that and sending them home to mommy and daddy looking shiny and new.
Sunday will be family dinner with my mom, and it's my gramps birthday so we will be having a party for him. Then Monday will be here again and it will all start over. I have a new goal to get the house clean... a puppy! I'm hoping that if I can get it clean and get stuff OUT we can get our first puppy. Yes we have 2 dogs, but one is 12 and the other is 6, my husband and I have never had a puppy together and they are so darn cute I want one! I wish he did too, we will see. That was this week, wish me luck on the next!
Tuesday and Wednesday we just kind of hung around the house doing chores and cleaning (with not much to show for of course). Thursday we went on an hour drive to buy chicken feed and bunny food because I had a 10% off coupon and forgot to use it. Then my son, pooped in his diaper just as I was putting him into the car (they always do that when it's most inconvenient). There was no place to take him to change him and it was so cold so I waited till I saw a rest stop. Of course was no changing station so I put him onto the counter and changed him there with napkins. No paper towels to dry off your hands, just air dryers. Kinda funny too think about it if I hadn't had any napkins I would have had to hand wash his bum in the sink then try to dry him under the hand dryer... Ha Ha so funny when I actually play that in my head! I can imagine the mother and daughter that went in after us walking in to me holding my son at arms length under the hand dryer trying to get him dry.
Tomorrow my son and I will go to pick up a Silkie Rooster for my baby Bantam chicks while my daughter, is at school. Then go pick her up and later get some baby Quails... Yes Yes I am very much becoming a farmer and very much enjoying it! I love my farm and I love how it is only 5 minuets away from the city so I'm not too far away from a drive through Starbucks! Have I mentioned I love coffee and it is my vice? It might as well be a cigarette to me I am addicted! Hoping to get my dishes done too and as for Saturday It's gonna be a busy day at work! I'm guessing it's going to be a 15 animal bath day plus finishing half of that and sending them home to mommy and daddy looking shiny and new.
Sunday will be family dinner with my mom, and it's my gramps birthday so we will be having a party for him. Then Monday will be here again and it will all start over. I have a new goal to get the house clean... a puppy! I'm hoping that if I can get it clean and get stuff OUT we can get our first puppy. Yes we have 2 dogs, but one is 12 and the other is 6, my husband and I have never had a puppy together and they are so darn cute I want one! I wish he did too, we will see. That was this week, wish me luck on the next!
Thursday, February 4, 2010
A day for me
It has been a crazy week. My close friend is in the hospital, so I have been taking care of her and her house. She has a couple dogs so they are really upset that mommy isn't home right now. I'm at the library getting a couple hours peace while my mother and Gram are watching my babies. I got to go online last night and update my podcast. I found this great new one called "The Because Show" I listened to their newest podcast and loved it and am now hooked! I haven't had time to really read any of their blogs but I am sure they are just as great as their show. Hopefully I will be either getting my computer fixed soon or getting a new one so I can stay on top of my own blog as well as reading others that I enjoy. For the first time in a while I feel some peace in me, I have been so stressed out about my house that I can't ever seem to relax!
Spring is on it's way here and I am now on 2 acres of land and I plan to make use of it. I think I have at least 30 veggie and fruits planned to grow and I plan on selling the leftovers and donating them to the local food bank. I also plan on adding some fruit trees. On top of a giant garden I am going to build a double chicken coop, to house both ducks and chickens and adding an addition to my home so my kids can have their own rooms. We also need to re dig ditches so we can have less standing water in the winter. Oh so much to do and I can't wait!
Cleaning for today: I got all the dirty laundry out of the house and am going to the laundry mat to wash it all. Then when I get home I will clean around and in all of our dressers so the clean laundry will be put away not set on our couch to get dirty or cat peed on again! Believe me this is a big chore, one of those ones that you do so much, but it looks like you didn't do anything. Off I Go!!!!!
Spring is on it's way here and I am now on 2 acres of land and I plan to make use of it. I think I have at least 30 veggie and fruits planned to grow and I plan on selling the leftovers and donating them to the local food bank. I also plan on adding some fruit trees. On top of a giant garden I am going to build a double chicken coop, to house both ducks and chickens and adding an addition to my home so my kids can have their own rooms. We also need to re dig ditches so we can have less standing water in the winter. Oh so much to do and I can't wait!
Cleaning for today: I got all the dirty laundry out of the house and am going to the laundry mat to wash it all. Then when I get home I will clean around and in all of our dressers so the clean laundry will be put away not set on our couch to get dirty or cat peed on again! Believe me this is a big chore, one of those ones that you do so much, but it looks like you didn't do anything. Off I Go!!!!!
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